Thursday, April 16, 2020

Day 34...

Bitmoji ImageIt's day 34 of Quarantine...ask me why I know it's day 34? Because 34 days ago I left my school building for the last time, with the idea in my head that I would see my students again in 2 days. Friday the 13th, of all days, was the last day I saw the most amazing 6th graders around. While "quarantine" didn't technically start until that Monday...I count it. 
34 days (minus 5) of teaching online. Of checking emails, calling parents, helping students into the evening, and praying those I haven't heard from are okay. 
34 days of not being with my church family like I'd like to be. Of going to the church office on Sunday's to either "be the audience" or to help with the facebook feed. Zoom call after Zoom call, google meet after google meet, everything is taking place through technology. Ordering groceries online for curbside pickup, wearing masks (or trying to find a mask)...34 days of trying to figure out a new normal. 
That all sounds a little negative doesn't it? I had to get through the hard reality first. 
34 days of trying not to waste my quarantine. 
What does "waste my quarantine" mean? 
It means...making the most of this extra time I have to spend time with my savior when I complain all the time that I don't have enough time. This has been 34 days of nothing but time. 
Praying those hard prayers that I know don't go past His ears. 
Reading scripture after scripture, not only for encouragement, but for reality. 
Waking up each morning with a new song in my heart. 
Recognizing that this is nothing in the face of our future. Nothing in the face of reality. 
God has this. God has not left us. He is a just God who answers prayers in His time and in His way. He is not ignoring us. He is not being mean...He's being Just. He's being sovereign. 
34 days of unlimited time with Jesus. 
Yes, I'm having to work from home as a lot of us are having to do. Yes--many are still having to make the drive to work. We're living as though God pressed pause for a little bit though. 
Time seems to almost be standing still. He's taken our lives, He's rearranged (or wiped clean) our schedules. Really the only things on our schedules now might be work and zoom calls. 
So why waste this time? 
Take the opportunity to spend time with Jesus right now. In these minutes. When your mind starts to wander...when things start to seem overwhelming...when you're at the point of so much isolation that you can't stand yourself anymore...turn to Jesus. Crack open your Bible and read...there's going to be something in those pages that applies to today. Turn to Paul's letters and preachings. Start there! 
This is not 34 days of the worst life we could live. 
This is not 34 days so far of negativity and anxiety (though the world likes to make it seem that way).
Turn off the news. 
Stop reading articles about COVID-19 for a little bit. 
Start reading God's message to you and me. 
I guarantee life will look better if you do that instead of listening to all the opinions going on in the world. 

So yes, it's been 34 days so far. The world around us has shut down. Reality seems strange and different. We can't visit with people like we want. We can't go see our church family like we'd love to do. We are longing for those hugs again. And who knows just how much longer we will be in isolation? Regardless...God is with us. He's in control. He's on the throne. He knows the answers. 34 days is nothing to Him. 
Focus on the moment you are in. Focus on God's word. Turn to Him :). 

Monday, April 6, 2020

#Jesuschangedmylife, and things I'm grateful for during this time

Happy Easter Week everyone! I can't believe how quickly this week has come upon us. It feels like it was just Christmas and we were celebrating the birth of our Savior, now we're celebrating His resurrection! Which...we should always celebrate His resurrection and its importance. 

The other evening, I watched The Gospel Coalition's prayer time, and those of us who were watching were challenged to help during Easter Week to reach the lost by posting our testimonies on social media by using the hashtag #Jesuschangedmylife. 
The idea of this is that people will click the hashtag and they will see story after story of how Jesus changed people's lives...and prayerfully they'll also be moved to come to the Lord. 

I posted my video on youtube and shared it on Twitter...so I figured I'd also share it here. It's the jest of my Testimony without all the gorey details. 

I hope if you have time, you will also watch it!

In the midst of this I've also been thinking on how grateful I am for what I have in my life...I've made a list...and I challenge you all to do the same

I'm grateful for...
1. Waking up healthy each day
2. Still being able to have a job and work from home
3. Friends who check in on me and who allow me to still participate in community.
4. Technology! And it's allowance of us to "see" each other even during social isolation
5. Family who checks in through group text each day
6. My students, and their cheerful spirits during this time
7. The sovereignty of our Lord and his grace and mercy He gives us each day

I could name so much more...but these are the top things I'm grateful for! I pray you all can do the same!